"Make it what you want it to be"

The heavens have opened, pouring down with rain.
The hearts ripped open, poring out with pain,
The skulls cracked open, pouring out the sane,
I was sitting just here yesterday, remembering the same
Sitting right there yesterday, feeling the shame.

It all went a bit pear shaped,
Something went wrong,
Didn't seem such a big deal,
Has it really been that long?

This was all that I needed,
Trouble right now,
Seems forever pleaded,
Could it happen again?
Something thought seeded.

Could it happen to you?
The urge to be fed,
Could it happen to anyone?
That thought in your head,
It can only be your mistake.

Everything still a bit pear shaped,
Something still so wrong,
How could it be a big deal?
It didn't even last that long.